It's been awhile: Life Update
/Life has a way of leading us down paths we never anticipated, each twist and turn shaping our journey in profound ways. Recently, our little family embarked on a new chapter that has been both exhilarating and challenging, filled with moments of joy, rediscovery, and heartache.
A New Home and a Rekindled Passion
After almost a year of searching, we finally found a house that felt like home the moment we stepped inside. The sunlit rooms and cozy nooks seemed to whisper stories of warmth and comfort. As we settled in, I felt a familiar spark ignite within me—a deep-seated love for home décor that I hadn't realized had dimmed over the years.
In our last home we never felt truly settled. The house didn’t feel like us and it felt like we were forcing ourselves into a home that wasn’t made for us.
While our new house has a list of updates and projects ahead of it, the moment we stepped foot inside it felt like us. I found myself lost in fabric swatches, paint samples, and the thrill of blending old treasures with new finds. This process of nesting has not only transformed our space but also rekindled a passion that brings me immense joy.
Over the rest of this year I’m excited to bring you along as we complete renovate our kitchen and two bathrooms!
Navigating the Ebbs and Flows of Life
Amidst the excitement of making our new house a home, life presented us with unexpected challenges. I recently experienced a chemical pregnancy—a fleeting moment of hope that was quickly replaced with sorrow. On Valentine’s Day I found out that I was pregnant. We were over the moon excited and honestly it felt like our little “miracle” since we were on the books to start IVF in March. We started counting down the days until it was “in the clear” to tell people, started planning the nursery and took guesses on whether it would be a little girl or boy. A few days after finding out I started spotting some and took another pregnant test. The second line was hardly visible so I went in for a blood test to confirm the pregnancy. It came back that I was pregnant. The next afternoon I started bleeding and I went to the ER around 1pm where they confirmed what my fear was…. I had miscarried. I’ve gone back and forth about whether or not I would post something. Part of me has felt so silly, telling myself… “you weren’t pregnant for that long” or “you never heard a heartbeat or even had an ultrasound.”
But a bigger part feels weird to just go on and post like nothing happened. Like it wasn’t real. The last 9 days have been filled with the highest highs and the lowest lows. I’m thankful for those happy days, for the hope we felt and I know we will become parents soon. For anyone else who’s gone through or going through something similar, my heart is with you and I hope you know you’re not alone
Embracing Hope Through IVF
With hearts full of hope and determination, we've decided to embark on the journey of in vitro fertilization (IVF). This decision wasn't made lightly; it comes with its own set of uncertainties and emotional complexities. Yet, we're choosing to focus on the possibilities it holds, embracing the advancements in medicine that offer us a chance to expand our family. As we prepare for this path, we're leaning into the support system we've been fortunate to build, finding comfort in shared experiences and the promise of new beginnings.
The last year has reminded us of the beauty in embracing each moment, cherishing the highs, and finding strength in the lows.
Over the rest of this year I’m excited to bring you along as we walk down the path of remodeling the home that we pray one day we’ll bring our future kids home to. My hope is to publish two blog posts a week, one all about the updates we’re making inside our home and the other around IVF.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being here.